rasa down yang amat!!

okiesss...semangat yang hilang (mcm tajuk lagu la pulak)....

i dont know what going on with myself, recently i feel down yg amat sangat...

apasalah mcm semua serba tidak kena ni???tolong...tolong...tolong...

i feel like a loser....i have nothing to be proud...and im turning 30 next year...haiyaaa....

why suddenly i felt like this??apasal selama ni aku selamba gaban ja menghadapi tapi tetiba ari ni emosi pulak???arrrggghhh....

kihkihkih...

maybe i need to transform myself into a supermum, supersista, superwife, superdaughter n all de super supaya de indabest feeling will gone from my mind....

chayo chayo...the first thing i need to do is update my resume....cari keja lain kuar dari opis ni...hahahaha....

update resume???yayy!!mau gambar baru la ni....aku ni dahlah fobia bab2 gambar pasport ni....gambar paspot ni amat2 menampakkan mukaku yg gemuk..halamak....

inda apa...aku cari gambar time baru2 kawen dulu...time 2 aku belom berapa gemokss kot....hikhikhik...

dan the hasil is.....

comel jerrr haku....haha

ok...ok...memang agak kembang...hehehe...tapi x pe..i will use this pic...sekian...

gudluck 4 me 2 update the resume n seterusnya...gudluck utk dapatkan keja lain....

bla...bla..bla...

boringgg.....


not in a mood to do anything....luckily my work not bertimbun like last week....n luckily boss not in the opis during this lazy mood attacking me...
open the drawer n i saw something attracting my mind....i make a simple bracelet :

i terus pakai....

very simple but i like it...ceh....
but the hand really disturbing my mind...why so big aa???haha..means im gemuk la itu kan....alamak....make me more stress....mau kurusss....
mcm mn mau kurus ni???even last night during the rainy night pun i force my hubby to take me to the grocery store to buy a big box of ice cream...nafsu...nafsu...
mau disiplin to control my makan habit la after this....gudluck aa mummy emrys...

aiyaa...betapa inda pandainya sy...yesterday i perasan kuku my litle emrys suda agak panjang dan sungguh bahaya untuknya coz now sy sudah buka dia punya mittens..jadi dengan penuh keyakinan i took the nail cutters, and TIP..ouchh!!potongan pertama saya suda silap potong...alamak mcm ada cedera :

jari telunjuk yg cedera....
sorry aa syg..

i promise after this i never cut your nail anymore....will ask daddy to cut it ok....
what a small matter pun i boleh fail....waaa...sedinyaaa.....
stress lagiii.....

hmmm..to reduce my stress better i stop here....karang semua cerita ending dia i stress....
kena fight ni supaya next time boleh jadi kurus n boleh pandai potong kuku si encik emrys.....

hari yg mengantuk!!

hhuuuaaarrgghhh..

sangat2 mengantuk hari ini...semalam my litle emrys betul2 menguji kesabaran saya sebagai ibunya (sebenarnya dia selesma)..hampir setiap 30minit dia menangis dan mau menyusu..
hati yg kesian melihat dia menangis, kdg2 bertukar kpd geram apabila rasa penat yg tramat sgt melanda diri (sgt mengantuk plus blm mandi pd jam 11pm)...nampaknya sy blm menjadi seorang mummy yg kuat (hope from time 2 time can learn hw 2 be a strong mummy)...


td pagi sy bawa emrys ke klinik...doktr suda bagi ubat, harap dia cepat sembuh...badan saja yg ada di opis tapi fikiran sentiasa di rumah teringat anak kesayangan yg sedang sakit d rumah...
baru sy tau begini rasannya jadi mummy...baru sy rasa apa yg mama rasa selama ini, baru sy tau kenapa mama marah apabila kami jarang menelefon...(ma, siou dit koinsanai winonsoi ku d nokoruol ginawo nu)...


waa..since im a mummy now, the way im thinking oredi changes a bit rupanya...mcm sy suda pandai pasal perasaan ni..ewahh perasan la pula...hope this positif changes will continuous and jadi bertambah baik la...hehe...chayo~..